Things happened in April. And March. Apparently I’ve fallen out of the habit of reviewing my months.  They’re all seeming to run together.

Things are happening and I like my life, but everything is just such a different speed and tone than the last few years of my life that I don’t really know what to do with it yet. How to process it myself, how to write about it for others to understand. My life is now so intertwined with the personal lives of children, co-workers, volunteers….that I can’t and won’t openly share all my stories on the interwebs. The stories are complicated, personal, detailed, crazy, and most of the time: Business, None of Yours.

And I don’t do much else but work, especially this month. I mean, I got older, but I was sick most of the day. Yay preschool stomach bug. And really, who wants to read about that?

Basically, the last two weeks, I have worked, then gone home and watched shows or slept. Or both. I’ve been exhausted, allergied, and trying to stay healthy enough to keep going to work. Ironically, last week during our devotional time at work, we talked about time management and using our time wisely.  Alas, I can’t always be super-productive.

May will be busier. Graduations, changes, crazy.

Also I watch Doctor Who now. Despite the persecution, I love being a nerd. I love time travel, existential questions, and beautiful music. AND Britishness. Can I be Amelia Pond?

Oh Harry

I watched the penultimate Harry Potter movie at midnight Friday.  It’s a miracle I stayed awake while waiting for midnight and a further miracle that I stayed awake through the whole movie.  This difficulty staying awake had nothing to do with the film itself and all to do with my working 40 hours a week, having a typical bedtime of 10:30 PM, and waking up at 6 AM most days.  Even with my tiredness the next day, it was so worth it.  The movie was fabulous.  It captured the first half of the Deathly Hallows almost perfectly.

Apparently, reviewers were falling asleep, but because they thought the movie was slow.  I feel like every review I’ve read was written by someone who hasn’t read or doesn’t love the books.  It’s SUPPOSED to be slower in some parts. Harry, Ron, and Hermione are wandering around the UK trying to save the world but they have no idea how. Of course everything won’t move at the speed of light.  They’re searching, they’re confused, they’re wandering. And really, they’re in the mountains and forests of the UK, so every background is gorgeous.  With or without the UK landscape, the film captured the frustration, desperation, and despair of the trio.

I think it was the best of the Harry movies so far.  Deathly Hallows was my favorite of the books, which is perhaps why I enjoyed the films so much.  I can’t really picture things when I read, so by watching the movie  I could finally see what I’d read.  I can’t believe there’s only one film left.

Too Much

I have a lot to think about.  And it’s really too much.  I pile on responsibilities, goals, ambitions. When one of my paths to something shifts out of my control, it makes me overthink. Then it’s 11:30 and I have to wake up in 6 hours and I know what staying up late does to me on Tuesday mornings but I don’t fall asleep anyway and I wish I could go to Homecoming.