December, It Always Happens in December

The last month of 2010 is about to arrive.

Whirl. Wind. A whirl of wind. [30 rock is in my brain]  That’s the only way to describe this year. As I think about the year, I almost don’t recognize myself from who I was last December. But it’s not the end of the year yet, who knows what else could change in the next 31 days.

So November.  The last 30 days have been like each month before it, full of busyness. I’ve been trying to figure out my life, what I want, where to find friends. I have had mixed success.

I love my job. I can’t wait to quit grad school. I’m excited to find another program that fits me better. In my heart, I think I know where I’ll head. But I haven’t done enough research or found a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow to do it.

This last day of November was long. I’m exhausted. Life is good.

 

Coldplay releases a new song tomorrow. I want it badly.

I love Christmas music. Coldplay’s new song is entitled “Christmas Lights.” I hope this combination is good.

December, be splendid.

Oh Harry

I watched the penultimate Harry Potter movie at midnight Friday.  It’s a miracle I stayed awake while waiting for midnight and a further miracle that I stayed awake through the whole movie.  This difficulty staying awake had nothing to do with the film itself and all to do with my working 40 hours a week, having a typical bedtime of 10:30 PM, and waking up at 6 AM most days.  Even with my tiredness the next day, it was so worth it.  The movie was fabulous.  It captured the first half of the Deathly Hallows almost perfectly.

Apparently, reviewers were falling asleep, but because they thought the movie was slow.  I feel like every review I’ve read was written by someone who hasn’t read or doesn’t love the books.  It’s SUPPOSED to be slower in some parts. Harry, Ron, and Hermione are wandering around the UK trying to save the world but they have no idea how. Of course everything won’t move at the speed of light.  They’re searching, they’re confused, they’re wandering. And really, they’re in the mountains and forests of the UK, so every background is gorgeous.  With or without the UK landscape, the film captured the frustration, desperation, and despair of the trio.

I think it was the best of the Harry movies so far.  Deathly Hallows was my favorite of the books, which is perhaps why I enjoyed the films so much.  I can’t really picture things when I read, so by watching the movie  I could finally see what I’d read.  I can’t believe there’s only one film left.

Dream Degree

I want a graduate degree that includes the following components:

  • research
  • disability studies
  • special needs ministry
  • special education
  • assistive technology
  • non-profit management
  • children’s ministry
  • family ministry
  • global missions
  • reading
  • writing
  • knitting
  • public relations
  • marketing
  • grant-writing
  • theology
  • graphic design

Why do I like so many things?

Halftime

Those six assignments I had to complete in about a week’s time?  Done.

Do I know it’s November? Yes.

Is November half way over? Yes.

Is it almost Thanksgiving? Yes.

Is it almost 2011? Yes.

Yikes. I did many things I did not expect in 2010.  I didn’t do many things I wanted to do.

I will not be an official student in 2011. Maybe then I’ll be able to do some of 2010’s uncompleted items.

Waiting?

In a quest to find a new graduate program, I have discovered what I already knew: Getting a master’s degree in something in which I’m really interested is expensive. Anything remotely ministry-inclined is more than twice as much as the degree I’m quitting. I find this to be ridiculous.  How can master’s degrees in fields specifically non-profit be so expensive?  Hello? I won’t be making any money with this degree?

I don’t want to go into more debt just to get a master’s degree.  But I don’t really see a way around it/  I’ve read a lot about avoiding debt and I’m totally on board with that. It’s just so unavoidable.

I’ve read about how Christian women my age who want to someday get married and eventually stay at home with their kids shouldn’t acquire debt because they won’t be able to pay it off.  There are two problems with that statement to me: someday and eventually.  I’m not going to put off graduate school for someday or eventually.

I believe in being prudent, planning for the future (whoa how I plan), etc, but I don’t believe in just twiddling my thumbs. I have no prospects in the young man department. None. Whatsoever. I’m not waiting around for nothing.  I don’t think God wants me to wait for nothing. I just don’t know what I’m waiting for or what I should do/what I should spend while I’m waiting.

Live every week like it’s shark week [Tracy Jordan, 30 Rock]

Really?

I haven’t figured out that it’s November yet.

I did what I’ve done all year at the end of the month, writing about what happened last month and my hopes for the next. I look at the calendar and talk about the date with my students every day. I mark off the calendar everyday to countdown until the end of my current experiment with school.

But I keep forgetting it’s November.

At least I’ll get an extra hour of sleep tonight. Maybe that will help.

I have six assignments due between now and Tuesday the 16th. Bring it, November.  That is, if I can remember.

Vote

I voted today.  I’ve voted before, but only by absentee ballot.  Today was the first time I’ve ever voted in a polling place by my home.

I vote because I like being involved.  I listen to NPR, read the newspaper, and make myself informed.  Even when my candidate or position isn’t elected or approved, I still take great pride in voting.

I vote because 100 years ago, I would not have been allowed.  Simply by virtue of being a woman, I would not have been allowed to vote (or considered a full citizen, really).

I vote because I’ve been in the home of Medgar Evers in Jackson, Mississippi. I stood in the driveway where he was assassinated, saw what’s left of his blood stained onto the concrete, heard the story of how his wife watched him die then fought for three decades for justice.  I learned how Medgar Evers fought so that African-Americans in the Deep South could exercise their Constitutional right to vote. He was killed because of that fight.

I vote because I’ve met Medgar Evers brother, Mr. Charles Evers. I listened to a man (who has personal photos with every recent president, knows personal stories about the Kennedys, and refers to conversations with President George W. Bush as “When I was talking to George”) talk about the importance of voting, being involved in what’s going on in America. He knows. His brother was murdered, assassinated for the right to vote.

I vote because I’ve stood just steps from where Martin Luther King, Jr was assassinated.  He was murdered because of his fight for the rights of others, including the right to vote.  I’ve learned the history of the movement for which he is the face at the National Civil Rights Museum at the Lorriane Motel in Memphis, Tennessee. I’ve seen through pictures, movies, and stories how he and others sacrificed to bring civil rights to all Americans.

I vote because when half of America doesn’t get their way tonight, no one will riot or turn to extreme violence to try to get their way back.

I vote because I have had so many opportunities to learn about America’s history.  Through reading books, traveling around the country, meeting people, and hearing stories, I have learned the importance of voting.

I vote because the sacrifices of others made it possible for me and for others to exercise our right to vote, peacefully.

I vote because I want to keep it that way.

I vote because as a young white woman in the Midwest, no one will question my right to vote. I want to use my votes, my knowledge to do everything in my power to ensure others have that same privilege.

I vote because I cannot remain silent.

I vote because that gives me power.